A notice from the Better Blogging Bureau
Hypochondriacal freakouts, as pleasurable as they might be, never seem to last long, and the last one passed in about two days (although to my credit it did seem to get worse as the days progressed, and then overnight, disappeared almost completely). So, none of you on the Left Coast are going to have to see me spotty or striped or in any other variation from the norm.

Yay! Girlfriends! Pretty much the norm. (from Maya’s flickr)
This turn of events left me with no excuse but to socialize. Outside my home. With other people. So yesterday I went to lunch with Rowain, who is typically very reserved in a formal Singaporean kind of way, but turned out to be hungry for female companionship, and almost immediately launched into some pretty personal talk. Lots in common, with us both involved with Germans with confusing exes, trying to negotiate this culture and the isolation that comes along with language barriers and lack of a social network outside of our Mann’s friends (not such an issue for me as I know I will return tout suite, but she’s here for the long haul). I was really touched by this attempt to connect and feel really sorry that I can be so terrible about my tendency to withdraw from the world for no particular reason.
We will be moving back to
California next week, and while I am looking forward to seeing friends (and the sun) again when I return, I am absolutely losing my shit over what must transpire when I get back. First, find housing. Then, little technicalities like getting a job (not career, mind you, a job like in how about some yard duty for money, and can I wash your car, too?), renewing my driver’s license, fighting with 24 Hour Fitness, and meeting the ex-wife. Oh, honeys, I am sooo looking forward to this moment in the falling-in-love-with-an-older-man saga. After all I have heard- and not just from disgruntled husband but from former mutual friends who have come clean with their real opinions about this person- I am so anxious that I am likely to have some sort of meltdown involving a little bit of barfing when it actually happens.
Will this blog turn into a ”can you believe what the ex-wife is trying to do this time?” blog? Not likely. While that might be entertaining in a melodramatic voyeuristic sort of way, I won’t succumb to that urge. No, not at all. Or maybe. What it may very well turn into is a “now what am I supposed to do with these two very small moving things he calls his sons and how do I prevent myself from becoming the evil-daddy’s girlfriend” blog. Sort of a mommy blog as viewed from the other side of the wormhole type thing. Ack. I don’t know how to do children. Yes, I babysat when I was a teen, but since then my interaction with kids has been limited to using my authority as a science teacher to announce that they should be careful not to jump too high- they may fly off the earth because it does spin awfully fast and gravity is just not that strong higher up there.
Someone once told me that my blog used to be good, even almost as good as dooce, and I had to agree. I used to be funnier when my life was in a bit of turmoil. This spate of happy months has rendered me quite a boring blogger indeed (I’m secure in my belief that yes, posting pictures of what I’m watching on TV is remarkably clever). If you are at all curious, I would encourage you to go through the archives of my first few months of blogging when I was a cold and hungry and sleep deprived grad student getting dumped all the time. It was hilarious! And heartwarming! And packed with life lessons! (And self-indulgent and just a bit masturbatory, but isn’t that what blogging is for anyway?)
So, we all get older, and life gets more complicated, and that’s what being an adult is all about. So there. Of course, I will attempt to hold my shit together and project a stoic maturity and strength of character so as not to be outwardly traumatized by forthcoming events, but on the inside my tummy will be doing flip-flops and I’m guessing that some of that neurotic angst-ridden craziness that is bound to be stewing in my little brains will seep into the writing here, lucky for you all.
P.S. There is an overabundance of alcohol here so if we decide to have a drink-our-cupboards-bare evening before we leave I’ll keep you posted.













